fallen and corrupt nature makes him inconstant, bored and anxious.
Look at the lives of the young; it is all noise, diversions and
thoughts of the future. Take away their diversions and they shrivel
up with boredom. Boredom brings us face to face with introspection,
with the result that we begin to discover how wretched we really
are. . .a totally unacceptable truth.
The most fundamental act in the
salvation of a Christian soul is repentance; and repentance consists
in finding out how wretched we are.
For us to do this, we must remove
all diversions; this will lead us to unavoidable boredom. Boredom is
an invitation to introspection, an activity loved by those who love
God and hated by those who love themselves.
The bored who loves God goes into
introspection, discovers his faults, corrects them and grows in
perfection. The bored who loves himself looks for diversions; and
diversion is the greatest obstacle in discovering how despicable he
Man's wretchedness can be
calculated from the price Christ had to pay to redeem man. From the
price, man in his fallen nature is a foolish earthworm, a sewer of
doubt and error, the refuse of the universe. For the lover of self
to cover up this truth takes a great amount of diversion. Should we
wonder, then, that every progress in civilization is progress in
The lover of God, upon discovering
his wretchedness, rushes to God who, alone, can fill up the
emptiness. The lover of self, refusing to admit his wretchedness,
tries to find fulfillment in the stars, the elements, in plants and
pets, in war, adultery and incest--which cannot fill up anything.
There are two kinds of men in the
world: the saints who think they are sinners, and the sinners who
think they are saints. Both of them are wretched creatures; except
that the saints know they are wretched. The sinners think they are
And the saints are great men and
women because they gave up all things (including all diversions),
allowed their boredom to lead them into introspection, discovered
what made them wretched and did something about it.